Wednesday, December 29, 2004
[to dinny and anyone who cares: im finally updating!]
hello! i was talking about new year's resolutions not too long ago. lets take a look at my
NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS FOR 2005
1.make more friends
2.be less rude to my sister and parents
3.be more passive eg.participating more actively in discussions and activities
4.say 'good morning' to the school's attendants
5.be less slack in my studies
6.be nicer to wesley, my younger cousin
7.say my prayers more often
8.be more patient towards other people
9.like my teachers
10.increase my blog's fonts
[touched by an angel]
x 4:56:00 PM
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time and tide truly waits for no man. the year of 2004 has flown by in a flash and suddenly, i am suspended in the world of anticipation, excitement and regret. the anticipation and excitement of welcoming a new year in school; the regret of not completing what i should have done. all the 'if only' phrases have fell upon deaf ears, my ears. my lack of courage has left me wallowing in self-pity and sobbing with regret. if your new year's resolution is to not regret the deeds you are to commit during the year 2005, please cross it out of your new year resolutions list. the truth is, there will always be things we humans do which we regret, sometimes for a lifetime. that is reality. everything happens for a reason, though you may think thats bullshit, but yes, there is always a reason for certain things to happen in a certain way. regretful? yes. unavoidable? no. so put something else in your new year's resolution list, something more practical like, not hating the teacher you hate most. but of course, i guess my words have fell upon deaf ears once again; for should that resolution be fulfilled through to next year, pigs will fly.
[touched by an angel]
x 4:24:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
i have decided that i am quite satisfied with what i have "achieved" during the holidays. Considering the fact that i am gonna complete 30 to 36 hours of CIP at the library, yup-i am satisfied. A pity i still havent completed my holiday homework. sighs. why must there be homework for the holidays? Is it so hard to give us students a BREAK? i think the answer is Yes. it is hard. the cruel reality of school and teachers is that learning never ceases and teachers cant give students breaks cos they seldom have breaks. so the only way they "de-stress" is to load the stress on our shoulders, and suddenly they feel happy again because they see people stressed up and not happy. Ironic huh. which reminds me of suicide cases of teens and tweens. Horrifying isnt it? the fact that there are so many depressed children and teenagers around you committing suicide, and you are still happy, making you wonder whether you are really happy or just hiding the depression. EVERYONE suffers from stress at least once in their lifetime. some of us are just calm and composed, cool as a cucumber. We think that they are SO lucky: they dont have any problems. STOP! thats where you go wrong. they have problems; they just have a different way of going around their problems. these "lucky" people remain calm in situations worth panicking. Should we not learn from them and think, instead of they are so lucky, that WE are lucky to have such people in our midst during panicky situations from whom we get help.
People who even consider suicide are oblivious to such people, obviously. Suicide will not seem wrong to the suicidal person, but just think about it. if a really depressed person is considering suicide, theres nothing wrong with anything anymore. these people just want to end their misery permanently. what if i tell you that their misery may not end? what if these people who commit suicide do not die? committing suicide would have instead added to their burden and problems. ending up as a cripple or worse, a vegetable, is going to make these people's lives worse. whats more, committing suicide will cause their family and friends to have added stress in their lives, and worry and sorrow, whether or not the person dies. in a nutshell, i think that committing suicide is wrong. do not EVER consider that option.
[touched by an angel]
x 4:58:00 PM
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Friday, December 10, 2004
the holidays are here! *ecstatic cry* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! phew. got that out of my system in the privacy of my living room- which isnt much privacy. haha. im JUST adjusting to this holiday spirit, but i found out something very alarming- im not getting much out from this holiday. For the last 5 weeks, and i say one-two-three-four-FIVE, i have been pretty much a couch potato. Apart from the duty of going to the library Mondays and Wednesdays from the ummm.... fifth week, i have been living in the warmth of the sofa and the chair in front of the computer- like what im doing now. Well, on Wednesday, I went to library to carry out my CIP. im hoping to hit a 36 hours this year. i had to do reading which is arranging books in the correct order. like if it reads 200.000 to 249.600 or something like that, then the books in that shelf are to be in that order and i have the honour of putting books in the correct place. what honour, huh? then, there was this lady who was looking for books about furnishing[i was put in the 'home and garden' section]. She was asking for small space living. i found a book on small space living, and when i passed it to her, she was rather happy, smiled and said a thank you. wow. the satifaction i felt when i "served" her was great, but not that great. and the feeling of satisfaction of service didnt last long. i had to go help arrange loan receipts for the upcoming lucky draw. I really pity the office people having to stay in a dry, air-conditioned office doing admin work. the environment is really stifling. but anyway enough about wednesday already. gtg. mum's back. dont want her to nag.
[touched by an angel]
x 6:43:00 PM
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Friday, December 03, 2004
yippee! im back from genting for nearly errr.. 2 days! it was such the funnest trip. the rides were fab-ulous! a pity i didnt get to go on the space shot. haha. actually, i wanted to go on that ride[its the kind which goes to a great height and suddenly-WHOOSH!-it comes down] but i got cold feet when i was on the ferris wheel. talk about irony. anyway, i made up for it by going for the flume ride which is basically about getting wet. the sky was very misty[i mean genting is on high grounds, so...], and i didnt get to sit on the flying dragon ride. hmmph! but, i got to see this cute guy lining up as well. *thanks for making my day!*
anyway, we got 2 rooms in first world hotel; they were small, but sufficient. i loved my time there. i bought presents[christmas ones.] for my friends! yay!
coincidentally, my sista and i saw someone at genting whom we know. he was on a trip with his catechism class, i think. matthew. that is ULTRA cool! fancy travelling with your cat. classmates after confirmation. wow.[ i will be editing this post later. im not too sure about the quality of my language for this one. haha. just to make sure that my *readers* get the finest from me. ]
[touched by an angel]
x 3:25:00 PM
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