i have decided that i am quite satisfied with what i have "achieved" during the holidays. Considering the fact that i am gonna complete 30 to 36 hours of CIP at the library, yup-i am satisfied. A pity i still havent completed my holiday homework. sighs. why must there be homework for the holidays? Is it so hard to give us students a BREAK? i think the answer is Yes. it is hard. the cruel reality of school and teachers is that learning never ceases and teachers cant give students breaks cos they seldom have breaks. so the only way they "de-stress" is to load the stress on our shoulders, and suddenly they feel happy again because they see people stressed up and not happy. Ironic huh. which reminds me of suicide cases of teens and tweens. Horrifying isnt it? the fact that there are so many depressed children and teenagers around you committing suicide, and you are still happy, making you wonder whether you are really happy or just hiding the depression. EVERYONE suffers from stress at least once in their lifetime. some of us are just calm and composed, cool as a cucumber. We think that they are SO lucky: they dont have any problems. STOP! thats where you go wrong. they have problems; they just have a different way of going around their problems. these "lucky" people remain calm in situations worth panicking. Should we not learn from them and think, instead of they are so lucky, that WE are lucky to have such people in our midst during panicky situations from whom we get help.

People who even consider suicide are oblivious to such people, obviously. Suicide will not seem wrong to the suicidal person, but just think about it. if a really depressed person is considering suicide, theres nothing wrong with anything anymore. these people just want to end their misery permanently. what if i tell you that their misery may not end? what if these people who commit suicide do not die? committing suicide would have instead added to their burden and problems. ending up as a cripple or worse, a vegetable, is going to make these people's lives worse. whats more, committing suicide will cause their family and friends to have added stress in their lives, and worry and sorrow, whether or not the person dies. in a nutshell, i think that committing suicide is wrong. do not EVER consider that option.